What if it is the easiest thing to do?

Sometimes I miss you so much I couldn't breathe. This heavy pressure upon my chest keep weighing me down.

I want to quit you, I want to, I really really do but I don't want to because I feel like I can't function the same without you.

That's the thing about uncertainty. I'm too afraid to try because I'm afraid it would be hard but what if I'll just breeze through it? What if pushing you out of my life and forgetting you is the easiest thing to do?

Maybe I should try. I can't take this anymore. I am to blame for all the feelings that I'm feeling.

I need to put myself first once again.